I remember the time
when I was teaching at one of companies running in education field in
Makassar. The company held the motivational training for all tutors.
That time I was very energetic, full of ideas, had many targets and
dreams. When the session of asking questions began, I asked a question
to the trainer about capacities of woman. I had many things to do, but
my religion has limitations. That's the point of my question. Then I got
a brilliant answer from him, "Are you really doing the best in what
corridor you are now? He smiled. I could not answer it.
Now
I rethink about myself. Perhaps, it is somewhat like Scarlet Johanson's
life in Nanny Diary. Every human has certain spaces in his/her life.
The moment when people really do not know where to begin. I am not stuck
in one condition. It is just something I have to do. Hmm, I babysit. My
niece parents are working. My mom cannot hold the situation alone. She
is overwhelmed. She asked me to stay beside her for a moment and helps
her to nurse the fussy baby. She is very fussy, loves crying, but those
are good premonitions that someday she will be clever.
Life
is a process not a result. Have I really done the best in my corridor
now? I don't think so. I still have many responsibilities and cannot
responsible for them well. I also realize that today's life, people of
the ages of me are supposed to work or make money on her own. I trust
Allah has created beautiful plans of my life. At least, I don't just
stay at home. I still do something. Love is totality. I am trying to
love where corridor I am now. Allah sees the process not the result.
So whoever does an atom's weight of good will see it, (Q.S Az Zalzalah:7)
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